A month at home

It's been a month since I quit my job at Nintendo... who quits a job working for Nintendo??  I did!  And guess what... I miss it...  I miss the adult interaction, I miss the games, I miss the freebies... all the things that you would expect to miss about working for such a great company.  I also miss the insurance benefits!

It has been a big adjustment staying home full time again, but it is rewarding as well.  I think it is the small victories that I have to take great pleasure in.  You might not understand if you don't have kids. A little victory is yesterday not having to yell one time for everyone to get in bed and stay in bed and to be quiet.  Although I had to stay upstairs for a half and hour until 2/3 of the kids fell asleep, it was so much less stressful than them running rampant like they usually do.  Today was a small victory... I didn't let my 6 y/o son manipulate me like he usually does and he fell asleep in his own bed! He has a tendency to end up in my bed..... judge all you want....I don't care...

I need to work on meal planning!  I need to know what is going to happen for the week at the beginning of the week.  I can't fly by the seat if my pants anymore trying to figure out what to cook an hour before it has to be on the table.  I need inspiration and I need new things to cook!  I find that I cook the same things week after week and it is getting old.  I need to find new recipes that the whole family will like.... not as easy as one would think.

I need to clean the bathroom too... boys and bathrooms do not equate to a clean floor... that's all I am saying on that!

New Year

Here's to hoping that 2013 is better than 2012!  I am hoping to find some real change in the upcoming year.  Inner change, inner peace and inner happiness.  All lofty dreams, to be sure, but I am going to start going to the Zen center and really practicing Buddhism this year and searching for enlightenment.  Nothing that I have done in the past has amounted to much and I want that to change.  I feel like the only thing that I have done right is my children, they are wonderful...most of the time, but I know that there needs to be some change. More discipline, more structure and more activities.

If I am totally honest, I feel like 2013 is going to bring me a great loss as well...so I want to make sure that I spend the time that I want to with the people that I want to.