Still waiting

Still waiting on the test results and I am working myself up into a tissy.  I keep googling everything and I am stressed out.  I just want to get the results, now.... before I freak myself out more with stores of brain surgery and tumors...radiation... all of that... this can't happen to me now, not when I am going to be going to school.  I keep having these thoughts that it is going to be positive and that I am not going to be able to go to school.  But then I think that there is never going to be a diagnosis for what the fuck is wrong with me and I am just going to keep getting fatter for the rest of my life... it would be too easy if I had an actual diagnosis.