I came home
and sat with you.
I knew the time was near.
I didn't know what to say
so I just held your hand.
Everything was slowing down.
It seemed as though peace was close at hand.
I took a few minutes so we could be alone
before I got the others.
We all gathered around
I told you we were there
I said I loved you as tears streamed down my face.
I lay down beside you
like I used to do when I was little.
My head on your hip
your frail hand in mine.
I felt your heart slowing
until it just stopped.
With a slow, silent exhale
you left us.
Your pain was over
and mine was beginning.
I miss you so much.
I thought it would get easier
it hasn't quite yet.
I don't know where your energy went
we all know you were a spitfire
full of something, I'm not quite sure what.
That energy can't be gone
it's here somewhere.