Suffocating

I feel like the amount of stress that I have in my life right now is suffocating me.  It's all rather minor, but accumulated it feel overwhelming.  Ethan has been getting sick way too far too often for a little guy.  He just throws up randomly.  It all goes back to when Evan was diagnosed with diabetes and I am slightly paranoid about Ethan having it.  He has been thirsty a lot lately... maybe I am building it up in my head, but to ease the paranoia I am going to check his fasting blood sugar tomorrow when he wakes up just to make sure that it is below 100,  once I see that on the meter, that will just make me feel better.

I have a week long  trip to San Diego coming up for work that is stressing me out.  The first day of school is tomorrow. We moved the boys into one bedroom because for some reason they wanted to share a bedroom, I guess they feel like they will have double the amount of toys.. I think that is the boy logic that they are subscribing to.  Work is kind of getting to me.... I am getting to a point where I just kind of am ambivalent towards my job.  I decided i am applying to the radiography program again this January.  There shouldn't be a waiting list anymore and I am pretty sure that I should be able to get in.

In other life things, I think that I am going to join Weight Watchers.... again... I can't really say that I am thinking that it is going to have wonderful results.  I think the thing that gets me about it is that the people who actually run the "meetings" don't have any real nutrition training... although the same can be said for a Dr. as well.. I just don't like the whole AA feel to the meetings and I don't like how the meeting person seems to give off the impression of knowledge, when everybody is different and every bodies needs are different.  It can't all just relate to points... but I am going to give it a try again and see what happens.  I am also going to try to go back to the YMCA again and start working out. It has been literally a year since I have worked out.... ever since I started the job I haven't worked out. Pretty pathetic... I am really down on myself lately... I need a lift.. I am hoping to try to get to the gym at the hotel when I am in San Diego, I really won't have that much else to do , I don't really plan on going out or anything like that, so i am going to really try to get some good workouts in and hopefully it will help to jump start a workout program.

I also want to go home and visit my parents....I just feel like I need to see them now with my own two eyes and make sure that they are actually OK and doing well.... to look around the house and see how things are....