Christmas

Just really sad that mom isn't around.  It's not like I have been home in forever, but it's hard knowing that I will never talk to her again. I miss the 30 second phone calls with nothing to say.  Now I have plenty to say and I can't say it. So I try to call dad more.  Even when there's nothing left to say and it would be easier to just skip calling.... I would rather have an awkward phone call than not be able to talk to him ever again.